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Salaam everyone,


One of my fellow readers, tpot, made a comment in my cbox on the right. I think her comment deserves a proper post as a reply. Hope you don't mind tpot :)


tpot: salaam love the posts. altho i have yet to b a true muslimah, i shall try..& by reading what uve written, i know i can


Tpot, jazakallah for your comment and for dropping by into my humble blog. Truthfully, I think what I have written so far is nothing out of ordinary.

To tell you the truth, I am yet to become a true muslimah. I am a muslim, and I am trying to upgrade myself as a muslimah but from the looks of it, my journey is still far from its destination. I even wonder if I will ever reach my destination.

To me, a true muslimah is not just someone who puts on a full hijab and prays five times per day. But she also needs to protect herself from doing anything that is syubhah. She needs to be someone who tries to do as many sunnah prayers as possible. Someone who gives sadakah. Someone who is well read hence knowlegeadble about her own religion. Someone who you can always turn to when you have doubts and questions relating to Islamic matter. Someone who....Oh the list goes on really.

And I find that I am moving ever so slowly towards that ideal muslimah that I have in mind. Sometimes I even wonder if I am moving forward at all? However, at this stage the most important thing is our niyyah. Make sure we are doing this for our love to Allah. Make sure that when we do move a step forward, we won't go two steps back. Drag that feet, move move move albeit just for an inch.

And that is why I opened this blog. This blog serves as a constant reminder for me to always try and move forward. I get my strengths from this blog. There are times when I just tie my scarf around my neck but when I read back my previous posts on hijjab....I felt ashamed of myself and try to resort back to wearing a proper hijjab.

The point is that we MUST start now and do something. In the past I used to say things like "Nanti tah bila umur ku 25, baru ku betudung". Alhamdulillah Allah gave me hidayah and made me realised that.....what if I don't get to live till 25?? I don't want to die as a non-hijjabi! I don't want to die without asking for Allah's forgiveness.

At first it takes a lot of dicipline to just simply leave behind what we used to do. But after sometimes it grows on you. In fact it makes your life so much easier. I seldom go to the saloon to cut my hair anymore. lol. I always just ask my sister (or a particular friend *uhuk*) to cut it because noone is going to see it anyway! Plus it's cost free!! hahaha. But please, you don't have to join my don't-have-to-go-to-saloon-to-cut-hair-club! hahhaa. It's just that I don't have time to go to one. I'd love to go soon though. hehe. I'd probably go during the hols.

One thing for sure, I don't remember feeling this comfortable with myself. In the past I always think of stuffs like " Do I look good in this?" or "What would people think of me if I do this or wear this?". It was just plain tiring. Besides we can't please everyone.

But now, our focus is solely to please Allah. It is difinitely much much easier to please HIM. And there's something beautiful about our religion that if one follows it, one will always look beautiful to others. Both inside and out. Just look at the Ustazs and Ustazahs on tv. Don't you think there's something about them that just soothes you when you watch them? Something that just drawns you to them? ........Or is it just me? Hmmm.

Pokoknya, there's something about our own religion in which the more we follow its teachings, the more we have this feeling of 'I am doing something that is definitely RIGHT'. And it's a very very niceeeee feelinggg. :D

The first step will always be the hardest. You will be thinking of: What will my friends say? or What will everyone else think of me?

But you know what? That is just syaitan's way of stopping us from entering Jannah and joining him in hellfire. So which one do we want?

...Hayatilah....Fahamilah....Renungilah...